Who's driving the bus anyway?
Talking about who's running "us" in our heads!
So as I am sitting there, in my mind, I am having a complete conversation with myself. It goes something like this. I really should get up and go weed the yard, it’s nice out. Oh, maybe I should go out and walk, that would be good for me. But I need to finish this book. Oh, look the neighbor is riding one of those auto skateboards, oh my there he goes, ops. Hm, maybe I should bake cookies, or have a snack? Is that the cat crying? Was that my cell phone vibrating?
After about 20 minutes of going nowhere, except maybe a little crazy, I had to stop myself and ask myself, what is going on here? I put my book down and got myself comfortable, closed my eyes, and start to breathe. I took 5 deep, comfort inducing breathes to calm and clear my mind, focusing just on my breathing, in and out. And I realize that the cloud of uncertainty that is hanging over all of us, has caught me unaware and did a sneaky takedown on my mind while I wasn’t paying attention.
Instead of being mad at myself or beating myself up, I sat there with all of me and let myself unravel the stress and anxiety that had been building but I hadn’t been fully aware of.
How many folks are out there driving around, not knowing who’s at the wheel? Is it stress and anxiety that are driving and motivating us? These crazy days, we need to stop and listen to our inner voices more than ever, so that we can make sure that it is us driving the bus and not one of the many things that can capture us and drive us where we don’t want to go.